Last night I had a dream that Jessica and I were walking down MLK, chatting about my history class. We somehow got on the topic of Texas seceding from the United States and I said, “it’d be pretty amazing but I guess it wouldn’t be that bad.” She suddenly got angry and said, “Catherine, no state can ever secede from the US.” and I got equally angry and was like, “Yes, they can. It’s their constitutional right! They just have to get the entire country to agree!” Then we just argued back and forth for a long time.
It was really stressful, and eventually she got hit by a car and broke her shoulder, and we rushed her to the hospital where this old man cut us in line for a stomach ache.
The point is, does anybody know what the real answer is? Are states able to leave and become their own countries? I know Vermont has a secession movement going and 13% of people from Vermont are in favor. Wouldn’t that be fun? You could go on vacation to the Republic of Vermont. Is there a place in the constitution I should be reading? Hmm..
I decided to put my thoughts into action. I decided to get well. I’ve had terrible insomnia forever and I guess since I got the flu my chest really hurt. So I quit some stuff. here’s how it’s going.
1. QUIT SMOKING-Day Two- ZERO cigarettes (from being down to just three or so a day for four days. (fingers crossed- total dedication- no patch- no meds)
this will help me feel better, my voice won’t suffer and it’s a positive thing to do. I have bee smoking since I was 14 (over half my life). yuck. it’s over. (smokerbreaker LP coming- (not)
2. QUIT COFFEE- I drink too much coffee. It gives me anxiety- I think it does anyway. I push myself hard enough I don’t need to have a heart attack. So I quit. I feel fine. I still make tea. new fav mx- Red Clover with Rose Hips….yummmmmm.
3. QUIT RUNNING AWAY FROM MY PROBLEMS-
i am so far from perfect, so flawed, so human, so dumb, so smart. BUT i am not getting anywhere right now blogging at FOGGY every time i feel lonely or weird. I used to read and write even more than I do lately. It was a great relief. But you know, I am the same guy that writes these lyrics and stuff about some serious issues. I have to face that fact that i am that person and you know, work on that. Because it is just as effective to understand myself and share joy as it is sadness and, well, i have taken some steps to understand myself better.
I feel good sharing. Everyone down here on this funny little planet can use some love and some light and some sharing and I just wanted to let anybody who knows our band and knows our gang to know that I was taking care.
I also thought, and this is stupid, but, if you are going through some rough times out there, you are not alone, and even if you don’t know me and I don’t know you, well, we’re aLL CONNECTED and all have that same potential to change and to love ourselves and others and to free ourselves from pain. And I am a big knuckle head and I am making some strides towards getting well.
So if you are feeling alone out there or on the rocks, just know i feel ya’ and one soul to another….HANG IN!!!! like my friend tells me when times get funky.
Now I am the last smoking tumblr. My days are numbered.
"Rupert and his wife Liz have been farming 215 acres on the Chatsworth Estate for the last 46 years. The farm which rises from 550 to 850 feet above sea level carries a flock of 120 mule and Texel cross ewes. There is also a dairy herd of 100 Jersey cows and some 60 followers."
So when you google image search my name, the first result is this photograph (not me), accompanied by this caption:
"You never loose your girl, You just loose your turn.”
With a 7:1 guy 2 girl ratio, Alaska isn’t my 1st choice when looking 4 women. However, in my personal opinion, Alaska girls rank high on my scales with their lovable wilderness ready personalities & down 2 earth looks..
A banner day to be at LGUHS. I was just privileged enough to witness the 400 strong student body (7-12!) welcome 20-some Mongolian dance and theater students, who are here for a couple of weeks as part of the Journey East project. Literally the entire school went out to the front entrance and cheered their arrival, in the rain. Pretty awesome/surreal.
Today, I am awake before the internet, supervising 8th graders taking standardized math tests. They are not that into it, but they’re being quiet. Except for Wade, who has figured out a pretty great way to make fart noises with his mouth. Natalia, meanwhile, seems to have misplaced her test booklet entirely. I should probably tend to this situation.
Flannel nightgowns are really kind of awesome. Tonight I will see if they bunch up as much as I remember, or if, in my advanced age, I have become a more sedate sleeper and the nightgown will stay roughly where it belongs over the course of the evening.
The Fearless Freaks, which made me fall in love with Wayne Coyne a little bit. Incidentally, The Flaming Lips made a science fiction movie, Christmas on Mars, which is about to be released. The documentary shows some of the production process, and it promises to be pret-ty awesome.